TW: Suicidal thoughts.. Spoiler: writer is alive I would be lying if I said, I never thought of it. Of ending it all. It would just be a matter of 2 seconds, and in those 2 seconds I would be free. Free off all the pain in my head, free off all the fear I … Continue reading To the Brink and Back
Journals
Sand
Dear Sand This is an ode to the dream that I want to be a part of, but may never be. Yes, this is to you Sand. Please ignore the fact that it's not actually a poem, in a way, I have poured my heart out to you. I am writing this to remind myself … Continue reading Sand
Friendship doesn’t change.. it lives on forever..
I was older to him. Although, just a couple of years older, but we were best friends. We met in the school bus and since then, for the next 16 years, we have been friends. We have played cricket, basketball, table tennis, squash, badminton together but we hardly fought. We also tried the dexter's laboratory … Continue reading Friendship doesn’t change.. it lives on forever..
Struggling to show my love to my parents.
Yes, I am struggling to show my love for my parents and it sucks. Like BIG TIME. I am now old, and am a total mess in myself. I have no close relationship outside my family, except friends. It was initially a choice that I had made, and now I am struggling through it. Was … Continue reading Struggling to show my love to my parents.
Depressed?
I was going through my possible reasons for being depressed and I stumbled upon them. 1. I might have lost my value, my self-esteem in my own eyes. If not, no rejection, or no non-conference could have affected me. 2. I might have lost the touch of that moment in my life where I was … Continue reading Depressed?
A nexus around nabe detection
This is (not a story) about a friend of mine who helped me open up in a new and an intimidating environment. It is a story not about how he motivated me to speak up, or to be confident at what we discussed. No. It is a bit different set up. We both figured our … Continue reading A nexus around nabe detection
Worst is over..
The time was flauntless, No worry could reap, The roads were moving smoothly, where no stones could weep! I hurdled and stooped suddenly only to see if my friend, was good behind me! A revoking thought occurred that put an end to my normality I gushed to an open space unknowingly to hit the present … Continue reading Worst is over..
The day I got 99/100 marks in Mathematics and was hit by self- awesomeness.
“What is the LCM of 15, 20, 30 and 40?” asked my Mathematics teacher, whom we used to refer as ‘Strict Sir’. And exactly like Darsheel from Tare Zameen Par, I was ready to be humiliated with the punishment in front of the whole class. I was expecting it. It had become a daily routine … Continue reading The day I got 99/100 marks in Mathematics and was hit by self- awesomeness.
That Biryani.. No. That Ambience.. ~Mani’s Dum Biryani
I had always wondered, what would it be like to have a peaceful dinner date with yourself. You with your plate, and your thoughts. Wouldn't that be just sad? Like, forever single! Are you?? Well, it wasn't exactly the case when I knocked at the counters of the restaurants half a score and they all … Continue reading That Biryani.. No. That Ambience.. ~Mani’s Dum Biryani
1st date with Google Mini
Got Google mini. Set it up and all ready to use it. Me: Hello google. Please play a song. Google Mini (GM) : playing song from Google songs. Starts playing a sad song. Me: hey google, next song. Starts playing new song. This time Bhangra with good beats. It is 11.30 in the night at … Continue reading 1st date with Google Mini